Nope.

It’s the people that have totally fucked me up/over that I’m thankful for. I wouldn’t strive nearly as hard as I do if it wasn’t for them. 

But in all seriousness, I’m feeling super good about life right now. Well, maybe not about life, but I’m definitely feeling way happier in general. Trying to make my future possible.

Figuring out my AA, Working more, losing weight, saving up a little money, got a girlfriend who fucking kicks ass, EP is finally 100% done, we’re gonna be playing shows soon, keeping up vegetarianism (I’ll more than likely break eventually), side project with a punk band, learning to drive even though I hate it, etc etc. 

I wish life would slow the FUCK down, but I guess everyone does. Moi poppy says that life gets faster and faster as you get older. So FUCK getting old. 

I just want to freeze time on earth and take a few people with me, into some sort of perpetual dimension with no humans to inhabit it. In said dimension, the earth is completely abandoned except for me and a few people, yet everything continues to function completely normal (like food wont go bad, water keeps running and functioning, electricity works, weather chages, etc). We wouldn’t get old or grow at all. There’d be a couple cars, boats, and unlimited fuel in all the vehicles. We could just lay around or go travel the fucking world. We could leave whenever we wanted in case we wanted to go back to normal, too. It’s such a pathetically childish idea, and hilariously impossible. But I guess that’s why it’s a fantasy eh? 

Perhaps I should spend less time dreaming or thinking of ideas/scenarios and just focus on living. Then again, imagination is always given up for reality. Maybe thats why we live in such a shithole, because everyone feels the need to forget their dreams or crazy-absurd ideas and “grow up”. It’s like, fuck you, mate.

I think if there is a heaven, everyone gets in and it’s whatever you want it to be. It’d be different for everyone. So at least I know what to expect. 

/end being a weenie.

This week has made me realize a LOT about my social situation, and how my generation works.

I wish I could have been born anywhere else, at literally any other time period. 

I’m actually pretty happy at the moment. 

Our EP is finished, and It’s really awesome I found someone who likes me so much.

AND it’s rainy! :D 

When people disappoint me. I’m fed up.

Waking up half naked with no blankets or pillows on my bed. They’re ALL on the floor, and I had the craziest fucking dreams ever. 

Jesus christ.

They’ve given music a whole new meaning to me.

Neutral Milk Hotel saved my life. hahahaha

If there ended up being some creator of the world, lets say, a giant planet creating monster.

And he came to earth and was like “Look, there isn’t any fucking god, you’re all fucking retards. I made this stupid fucking planet, and then evolution happened.” Then he like, created another planet or some shit just to prove it.

How would all the christians react? Would they still be in blatant denial? Still praising a lord that didn’t exist in the first place? As if they didn’t do that already.

Just makes me wonder how a vast majority of the world would feel if they were proven wrong. I mean, I’m an atheist. If God came out from the heavens at any point in my life and said “YO BITCHES CHECK MY DUBS, IM GOD LOL”. I’d be like “Well fuck, I’m converting, my ass got proven WRONG.”

But if there was 100% PROOF there was no god (not including all the obvious evidence we have now), would they stop with this stupid god is great bullshit? 

My answer is a huge fucking NOPE. Only time will kill such ignorance.

The christian religion is an extremely new religion, when compared to the age of the earth. 

In 20,000 years, I doubt there will be any trace of christianity left. I wish I could live that long to see it. They’ll look back on our existence like we do to the ancient Greeks…..

“How stupid they were to have believed all that bullshit.” They shall say. Look at all that silly heap of crap they based their entire wasted life around.

It’s been a while since I bitched about religion.